Suze

Sometimes IRC is a very fun place to be, and cruel, very cruel.


[00:42] <JakeX> btw guys
[00:42] <JakeX> Honest opinion plz? http://www.cosplayisland.co.uk/costume/view/10876
[00:43] <Royster> that's dangerous
[00:43] <JakeX> i trust you
[00:43] <JakeX> xD
[00:43] <@Suze> honest as in, me, honest?
[00:43] <JakeX> go
[00:43] <Suze> or honest as in everyone else honest and i stay quiet
[00:43] <JakeX> on
[00:43] <JakeX> *braces for impact*
[00:43] <hanagata> i dunno, haven't seen one piece
[00:43] <Suze> well
[00:43] <Suze> you look like a prick
[00:43] <Raujinn> That is a shit eating grin I want to throw my fist into
[00:43] <Vyze> a prick in an easy costume
[00:44] <Nemesis-Yojimbo> haha you guys. lol
[00:44] <JakeX> ....................
[00:44] <JakeX> ouch
[00:44] <Vyze> and grow some chest hair.  what are you, 11?
[00:44] <Royster> straw hat is all wrong, eye *scar* makeup way too thick, your arms don't stretch and yeah the grin is all wrong. Failometer 10/10
[00:44] <Suze> i hope that was a cold day
[00:44] <hanagata> lol suze
[00:44] <hanagata> 10/10
[00:44] <JakeX> ......................................
[00:45] <Nemesis-Yojimbo> rofl
[00:45] <JakeX> theres no chance im going to get a nice comment am i
[00:45] <Royster> you asked for honest opinion
[00:45] <Suze> and i agree that the scar is drawn on too thickly
[00:45] <Vyze> the beach looks nice
[00:45] <JakeX> .............................
[00:45] <Nemesis-Yojimbo> lol
[00:45] <Raujinn> it does
[00:45] <Suze> lol i was thinking that vyze
[00:45] <JakeX> .........
[00:45] <Vyze> bring the beach to aya instead
[00:45] <Vyze> it's a lovely looking beach
[00:45] <Royster> i'll second that motion
[00:45] <JakeX> IT WAS PHOTOSHOPPED
[00:46] <Raujinn> So>?
[00:46] <JakeX> it doesnt really look like that
[00:46] <JakeX> its dull
[00:46] <JakeX> and boring
[00:46] <Suze> i like that in one photo you have used shadow to make it look like you have some muscle tone
[00:46] <Vyze> haha

I haven't posted in an age so I had a think about something to post about.

This is my exam piece for art. I think it is alright but I could have made it a lot better if i had had more time on it. ;(




Lovely short post.

:DDDDD

I have been working on my final piece and it is finished now! I hate it so much, but I also love it.



This thing has given me nightmares for the last few days. I even had a dream where the sole subject matter was me cleaning my paint palette. u_u

It's finished now! It's gone! It's out of my life! Good bye.

I pronounce myself Queen Awesome for the day!

I wanted to write an LJ post to update on my life and tell people how I am feeling and stuff, since everyone always says I ought to. So far I have been staring at the blank textbox for 15 minutes with nothing that I particularly want to share springing to mind.

I have started to write more recently, just a couple of half finished short stories. They are nothing much but they are useful for me when I am trying to express my feelings and stuff. I just focus all my negative energy into the writing. I have some kind of mental block when it comes to telling people how I feel. Also it's nice to feel productive sometimes but I still haven't finished any so you know, whatever.

As for life in general I am feeling massively... overwhelmed right now. Not sure what I want to do next, where I want to be in 5 years, where I want to be even next week etc. It's all very confusing, but most of all I am just scared about how I will cope with some of the options with my depression and stuff. My depression btw is really bad again right now. Sometimes I find it hard to go outside or to meet people face to face, even phone calls can be hard for me. I don't want to go on saying things like, "It's not fair," because I feel like I probably brought this on myself and hence it is totally fair.

Right now I really appreciate my friends being so supportive. It's nice to feel like I belong even when I am in such a rut.

Oh on that note, random Tseng-ism:

--->Suze<--- says (13:02):

i just don't know what i want from life

Ant says (13:03):

im fraid only you can decide on that

--->Suze<--- says (13:04):

i know

Ant says (13:04):

maybe deep down you just want a night of passion with me

--->Suze<--- says (13:04):

lmao

So yes, that's all I really have to say right now.

Site and Forum now live:

check out http://www.ayacon.org.uk

That is all.

For some reason I have this complete inability to express any kind of emotion. I say "for some reason", I know exactly what the reason is, I just have no idea how to counter it. Sometimes I even feel envious of those who find it so easy to.

 Recently I have been stressed out beyond belief, my exams have all come within the same two weeks, including my art exam, which went horribly btw. I have 2 exams in the morning which I am totally underprepared for and have no hope in hell of getting a decent grade in. Some of you will probably think I am being all melodramatic there but I'm actually not. ;( I have started telling myself that I just need to take the test so that i am able to retake it in January.  I keep getting this feeling a lot recently like I want to cry, but I just can't actually cry. My body is just stopping me. It's not like I can say it is down to personal strength because I don't think it is. I am totally stunted in my personal growth - no short jokes >:O - and just socially retarded. And totally retarded. omg exams. exams i am going to fail. constant disappointment!

It doesn't help that I totally hate the book I am doing for my exam, all three of them actually. If your favourite book is the shakespeare one you might as well just give up. Franklin's tale is absolute rubbish filled with weak women and men trying to be all noble and stuff. And Short cuts is the most depressing book I have ever read, and that includes the journal that I used to keep. It's a book of short stories which are... awful. For example, "A small, good thing" is about an 8 year old boy who gets run over and killed on the way to school and the parents inability to deal with the baker who keeps ringing up and leaving messages to tell them that they haven't collected their son's birthday cake yet.  ;( I hate this book.

On a lighter note, today I found out that I have grown half an inch. Quite miraculous, I have been the same height since I was about 12, back when everybody else was the same height as me ;( I thought girls were supposed to stop growing at the age of 16 D; freak of nature! 
And in case you are wondering just how short I am it is now 5'2'' AND A HALF!!!

I just wanted to take this opportunity to wish you all a very happy chimpy week. 


HAPPY CHIMPY WEEK EVERYONE!!!

The rules are easy, just post 10 things that recently made you happy! Then tag 10 people and force them to post this meme on their LJs. Because it is good. Everyone needs a little happiness once in a while.

Yeah so I got tagged by Tarnia

1. Birthday cards finally arriving! (a week late, stupid greedy postal workers)
2. Scratchcard from Lat! (I didn't win anything but it was nice anyway). Thanks Lat ^_^
3. A bottle of Malibu AND A BERET! from Perrin. Hurray and thankyou ^_^
4. Hurray for adulthood!
5. Getting a free drink at the bar!
6. Going to the 6th form party thing for Prince Henry's!(even though I don't go there anymore)
7. I like college!, It's all collegey and not at all like school!
8. I'm predicted all A's for my grades!
9. All my birthday presents!
10. Exclamation marks at the end of all my sentences!!!

Ok so I guess I will choose to inflict this meme on Snap, Perrin, Ros (if she ever checks lj) ... and I dunno, some other people when I can be bothered to think of them.

I don't mean to spoil my usual trend of being miserable about... just about everything, but I am feeling the happiest that I have felt for a long LONG time. My life is finally starting to pick up and I can tell you, it is about bloody time it did.

Just a note to say that I am truly made of win.

Today I passed my driving test! First time too!

*winwinwinwinwinwinwin*

Evesham is really underwater right now. So much so that my brothers had to stay at work last night. Luckily my one brother works at ASDA in Bristol so I told him to get me a Harry Potter book.

Anyway, in order for you guys to understand the severity of the flood, here are some pictures taken of Port Street, which I live right next to.



( Some more photos )

I especially hate internet "drama" when there isn't any but people claim there is.

I am making an art portfolio at the mo so I have painted out the Lat picture and it looks awesome!!! ^_^

I also painted my Ros picture, but it has stuck to the page in front of it despite being completely dry, and now it has loads of white bits that i will need to paint over. Stupid crappy paint from The Works. ¬_¬

Pictures as soon as I can find my shadowcam.

Thanks Lat. You made me feel loads better tonight and I'm so glad that I'm friends with you.

^_^

I think I have already told the majority of you that I'm going to do another animation this year (not that the last was actually that animated). So yeah it's for the photoshop competition and well... just because I want to =P . I think this will be the last one I make unless I can find something else to inspire me next time, but really I have tried to put almost every aspect I could think of into this one.

I thought I had best just mention it on here because most of you are going to be in it. I was going to ask permission or whatever, but I don't really care because you don't really have a choice and are going in it whatever. I'm nice like that.

I haven't actually started making the flash yet, since it has required a lot of preparations and stuff. Also I have really only just started making the pictures for it, and there are a lot of pictures to go in.

So anyway, I thought I would give a preview because I made this picture this evening and haven't really shown anyone yet. I don't actually have Kate on my lj list, but you know, whatever.

I'm actually so bored right now that I decided to post in my lj, despite having nothing of interest to say.

Yeah... I have somehow put my livejournal page into italian. I should probably fix that...

In other news:

~Had a driving lesson today. She changed her car. As if it wasn't hard enough already. It's like completely different.

~Bought some shoes to wear to work.

~Saw Tarnia briefly in Worcester today (stuffing her face with a caramel shortcake thing. what about your diet? >=[ ) We were talking about what to get Ros for her birthday. Then we argued about what was better: pheonix wright 2 or new shoes. Shoes obviously.

~Saw Jay also, the silent figure in the background.

Nothing else I can think of so I won't waffle on about crap or photospam or anything.

blah.

AWESOMENESS!!! :DDDDDD

Ok well thanks everyone for my 8 "lovely" valentines. *cough*

I thought I might share them with you since I don't reckon anyone was serious:

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Anonymous:
I fancy you, but won't admit it.

Royster (this would be creepy if I didn't know him):

I still wanna take you home ;)

Chiiiiiiiiiiii *glomp*
And I want CAEK

Anonymous:
Mwah ;)

Anonymous:
your hot <--- (you're)

Anonymous:
Happy Valentines Suzzie-chan (very obviously from Gaz)

Anonymous:
*BUMS* <--- u_u

Jcmooorehead:
Happy Valentines day, hope you have a good day. <--- not sure he understands valentines, but then I could say that for the rest of these really

So yes a bumper crop of valentines there.

n_n

Ok well I haven't updated in ages as per usual. So this is just to say that I'm not dead, I'm just lazy and uninteresting.

Here is a random picture:



And here is my valentinr thingymathing:


Get your own valentinr

OMG my phone, although bad in many ways, has proved to be good in one useless way, rendering it pathetic overall. By plugging it in to my computer it has decided to reveal to me that it has somehow stored most of the texts that I have sent and received since may, even though I have obviously deleted them.

Is this my phone somehow revolting against me?